When I feel boring and waiting of the football match kick off, your msg appear my phone. I'm so happy that ah girl still will text me. But the feeling of miss again. How is my life now ? Normal. I just normally passing my holidays. But yeah I'm still the same, late sleep everyday. Sometime I wanna sleep but I can't. I just sitting on my bed one hour..two hours...and waiting myself fall asleep. Whenever I unhappy or what I dislike show to ppl. I prefer to keep. I tell myself I wanna live happily no matter what. When you said feeling weird that no more phone call everynights before sleep. Hmm, I'm so miss you ! But I need to stop myself. Telling myself that we're just friend, you call me bro. I don't want to discuss that with you again. I don't want make you feel difficult. What I can do is like that. I admit until now when I touch my Sino I still not dare and scare open your photo folder. All the photos that you sent me I still not to willing to delete it, I kept it. Yeah I know one day I will forget about you, my feeling toward you will gone one day. But when or will gone ornot ? Idk la. I really don't know. Let my God help me decide la. I'm so hopeful that she is my miss right that God gave me but if isn't, okay I face the fact. Life continue go on. God, I can't lie myself. I really still miss her and loving her. Whenever I miss her, thought of our memories, I just will stopmyself thinking. The feel of forcing myself wasn't easy. It's suffer. But It's okay I can pass through.
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