Life.

Seldom blog dy since SPM start. And now SPM are nearly end with a full stop. Recent life is so stressful although the big war gonna end. But still have a lots of thing to bother. My future but glad that have NS help me delay it so i've enough time to think about it. Life that without fb, twitter & instagram. Stay in a peaceful way. I think i'll enjoy it. Friendship? Sometime i really dont know how to manage. I do feel some friends are fake, ain't real. I'm so confuse. Nowadays whenever i feel down, i find no one to talk to. I would like to keep everything myself. I like to be alone sometime. I do miss the past that everytime before sleep i always with a smile and hope. But now no more. I will have my life alone. I tried to have a girl. But i cant at last. Once you put a girl inside, it's hard to find someone to replace it. Yeah my heart have her but i never think of can be with her anymore since those experiences. We have no future, we arr impossible. So i'll just being in single life, it always better than with a wrong person, hurts her. Lkc is tough, he can handle everything of his life. I still can have dogs, music with me. What's the feeling of go vacation alone? I wanna have a try, just to leave this stressful place a while. Full of fake & lies, i wanna have a rest. I aint God just wanna be a simple guy. Love is not with me now. I wanna find my another half that i really love her and wanna have a great future with her, not for sex. A relationship just with sex cant last long at all. It just full of lie & pain inside. I'm awaiting.